SIRO-056Amateur AV experience shooting 30

``I want to do something special,'' she said when asked about her motivation for appearing in an AV, and her expression looked slightly sad. However, in his calm yet clear tone, I could sense the strong ``will'' that he had made, probably after thinking through his thoughts. Her first experience was when she was 17 years old, with a boy she was dating at the time and a classmate of hers. When she moved to Tokyo to attend university, she became separated from him, and they lost contact with each other. During my university days, I attended school seriously and fell in love like most people. I even had a one-night stand with someone I didn't particularly like. A few years after graduating from university and getting a job at a decent company, she started working as an office lady, and now approaching the age of 30, she looks back on her life and says the following. ``It's not that I regret my life so far. I think I've had a fairly fulfilling life up until now, and I've experienced both joys and hardships like most people. But that's it. I'm just like most people. I'm sure I'll keep working at the company, and if I find a good person, I'll get married... Of course, someday I'd like to live that normal life, but before that, I want to do something special.'' Indeed, the more I listen to her, the more ordinary her life becomes. It was. There are no dramatic dramas, and a stable life that is far from "ups and downs." In other words, it is not the story's ``protagonist'' but the lives of ``many others''. Many people believe at some point in their youth that they are special, and sometimes desire a life different from others. However, these illusions naturally disappear when the time comes for children to grow up and enter society, and they begin to choose work as a means of making a living. However, in her case, she was much slower than other people to become possessed by this fantasy. At a time when the majority of people are compromising their lives and trying to reach an enlightenment that is akin to resignation (though they would strongly deny it), she has come to seek something special for herself. And what she chose was to perform in an AV, something that a woman living a normal life would never experience. "But then..." I swallowed the words that were about to come out of my mouth. She probably doesn't think too deeply about appearing in AV because she strongly desires something special. The importance of having one's own sexual behavior captured on camera and sold as a product to an unspecified number of people. The various problems that would arise from this could have a negative impact on the normal life she had said she wanted to lead someday. From my perspective, she clearly lacked "preparedness." However, this is a ``business'' for us, and our job is to create ``products.'' It's not my role to wake her up and stop her from appearing... After completing the interview and giving her permission to appear, she happily bowed deeply and said, ``Thank you!'' I pushed my conscience deep inside my chest and started explaining to her about the upcoming shoot.